Instrumental

Blinking fast, moves of eyes are rapid
Sitting still, everything is harming
Paralyzed, all I do is linger
Hunger strikes, cannot move a finger
TV done, console not consoling
Doing all not to do the thinking
Bout very deep, question that holds breath
Life or suffering or death?

Fear! Kills the mind
Fear! Is little death
Fear! Obliterates
I...! Will face my fear

Waiting, waiting, everlasting
Days so long, so frustrating
Doctor one, doctor two
Blood runs straight just through the tube
Exams, testing, nuclear vision
Fucking waiting for decision
Am I healthy, am I dying
Should I laugh or should be crying

Fear! Kills the mind
Fear! Is little death
Fear! Obliterates
I...! Will face my fear

Sleep never comes
I’m tired of this shit
I just wanna know
Is there something killing me

Fear! Kills the mind
Fear! Is little death
Fear! Obliterates
I...! Will face my fear

Feeling so alone
Standing still, so helpless, naked
Crowd just passes by
Staring at my skin - so fragile
Cannot say a word
They will judge and roar with laughter
Leaving me more closed
Petrified with eyes wide open

Living! On my own!
Cannot! Let them in!
Dying! Day by day!
.... So lonely!
x2

Naked in cold lake
Powerless, catching last breaths
Cannot reach for help
All I see are hostile people
In their fancy boats
Harmful, evil, bad intentions
Slowly giving up
Embraced by the depth and darkness

Living! On my own!
Cannot! Let them in!
Dying! Day by day!
.... So lonely!
x2

Dark desert
Prussian blue is night

I stand on the edge
Of a whirlpool black

Grasping anything
To stay out of it

Down there just a pure despair
Down there just a void of numbness
Numbness!

Falling
Alone
Falling
to break
x2

Numb to all no strength or will is left
To crawl up from this cold hell

Darkness covers the land
Darkness covers all the people

Nothing left to feel
No reason to be

What remain is pain
What remain is pain

Black sand fills the lungs
Nothing more to breath

I’ll kill you all!

I’ll rape you, your family and pets
You’re all the same, you fucking pests
I’ll bomb your homes, playgrounds, schools
That’ll finally turn your kids to ghouls

You fuckin vermin You don’t deserve your life
You waste the air You waste the land

We torture
We rape
We mutilate
Destroy

I’ll take all from you

We hate you all
We don’t know why
We just know that
We’re even ready to die

Your existence is an error
We’ll gladly correct
A meaningless disease
Cured by a shot in the head

We shoot
We kill
We conquer
We obey

HATE!

Our master wants you dead (death, death)
Our master is our mind (death, death)
Our master says the word (death, death)
We don’t question why (death, death)

It was me on that road
But you couldn′t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn't see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads end getting nearer
We cover distance but not together

I am the storm I am the wonder
And the flashlights nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don′t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It's about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What I have and what I ache for

I've got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there

Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have a flashlights nightmares
And sudden explosions

There′s no room where I can go and
You′ve got secrets too

I don't know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

I don't know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

I'm taking a ride with my best friend
I hope he never lets me down again
He knows where he's taking me
Taking me where I want to be
I'm taking a ride with my best friend

We're flying high
We're watching the world pass us by
Never want to come down
Never want to put my feet back down on the ground

I'm taking a ride with my best friend
I hope he never lets me down again
Promises me I'm as safe as houses
As long as I remember who's wearing the trousers
I hope he never lets me down again

We're flying high
We're watching the world pass us by
Never want to come down
Never want to put my feet back down on the ground
We're flying high
We're watching the world pass us by
Never want to come down
Never want to put my feet back down on the ground

Never let me down
Never let me down
Never let me down
Never let me down
See the stars, they're shining bright (never let me down)
Everything's alright tonight (never let me down)
See the stars, they're shining bright (never let me down)
Everything's alright tonight (never let me down)
See the stars, they're shining bright (never let me down)
Everything's alright tonight (never let me down)
See the stars, they're shining bright (never let me down)
Everything's alright tonight (never let me down)

I trust in father
He’s so gentle and kind
When he preaches about god
He always smiles

Not like at home,
Where things are really bad
In father I see calm

I even noticed
That recently he gives me even more attention than to other altar boys

At times I stay even a little bit longer after the service
We joke and laugh,
Sometimes he even gives me a bit of a communion wine
And today is the big day, he invited me to his rectory
Cannot wait to talk more with my only friend

My love is so strong I can barely make it
Those blue eyes, angelic hair are calling
I think that my rectory is ready
For the second coming!

GO!

Come inside
Leave your alb
Relax, you are so welcome

Greet your father
Meet your god
Well at least his agent

Here you go
A cup of tea
Don't you mind it's bitter

I added just
A bit of herbs
So you could feel bit better

All is good
All is fine
If Jesus comes
So can I

Oh GOD we scream
Both for different reasons
We need him now
In this holy minute
The body of Christ
Kneel to take it all
Communion's done
Just wash away the blood

I’ll use you
Like piece of meat
You fucking fag
You did this to me

You’ll burn in hell
You should be ashamed
Tell this to no one
You should be afraid

It’s only true love
When you sacrifice
But tell about our love
And you’ll be crucified

Lingering slowly at back of your head
Whispering horrors of suffering and death
Do now as I will, remain in this fear
I know what would help you, but you can’t shed a tear
I’ll hold back everything by giving all bad thoughts
You cannot process them, so wise is my choice (shut up)
You better watch out I warn you friend
Analyze all details until very end
Think of all the beautiful catastrophes you’ll have
In your nearest future and you’ll be to blame

Shut up you fucker
I’m stronger than that
I’ll deal with my shit
Just let me cool down

I need to be calm
You whisper your shit
I don’t need that
Just shut the fuck up

Why would you say that? I am on your side
Giving you warnings that things might be bad (no)
And there is a plenty of dangers in there (shut up)
It’s good thing you know of them and that you’re scared (just shut up)
I’m just multiplying the things that you know
You listen to me and think even more
Now go under blanket there you’ll be safe
Doom scroll all socials, they’ll feed your brain
Look there at racism, far-right and violence
You need all that stuff instead of the silence

Fuck you anxiety
I know what to think
Not going more
For your sick kink

It’s true that the world
Is full of violence
But I still need to
Enjoy the silence

Whispers in my head so loud It’s hard to hear the truth
But it is truth
Black and white, mind paralyzed no way to be in sooth
Good, you should worry
Overthinking, analyzing, focused on the dark
Oh, but the reality is dark
Trying to clear out my mind but going back to start
I’m in control again